Kevin Francis Baker - Online Memorial Website

Jo,

I am so sorry that I didn't light a candle or send an email on the 7th.  I know how tough Kevin's birthday must have been for you.  Missing our boys is an emotional roller coaster and in my case, at times, the ride is too frightening to endure.  Andrew's birthday is January 26th..he would have been 21 but will forever remain 18 in my heart.  His sister got married on January 5th and he was a honorary groosman. I tried not to focus on the fact that he wasn't there physically, yet I felt his presence spiritually.

This was our third Christmas without Andrew as well. (Remember, Kevin and Andrew went home to Heaven within a few days of one another in 2005.)  I wonder Jo, will life ever be normal again? Or, is this void and pain simply going to become a permanent part of who we are? I know that Andrew would not want us to grieve as we have and I imagine Kevin would have expressed himself in the same way.  They forgot to tell us where the instruction booklet is that will enable us to do that, huh?

Do take care and God Bless You...Debi

debi.lynne@hotmail.com

http://andrew-collins.last-memories.com